I shouldn’t be alive….nobody should care about me…I’m an asshole, a jerk, and a douche…..I treat my family like shit when they give me everything…..I ignore them like they don’t exist…..today I’d Mother’s Day..what did I get my mom…a god damn argument…..I should shoot myself…..I don’t deserve to be fucking alive…..honestly with out me…everyone would be happier….especially the guys…like cole…I’m sorry I hit in you….I’m sorry that I love you….I’m so sorry that I’m a disturbance in your life….I deserve to be treated like shot from you….that’s how everyone should treat me…..well hopefully no will have to worry about how they treat me….unless some actually reads this….which no one will….I’m sorry everyone my speck of existence is a disturbance in your life…